humm....

You know what, my journal on gaia makes me wonder if i post something like this: "IM GONNA KILL MYSELF!!" would anyone will notice. And if they do, it'll prolly be too late. And that says a lot about my friends on gaia: they dont get online enough. Its pretty funny.
Im not planning on killing myself though....im sure at least someone outside my family will miss me. ^^
Haha, joking.

And what's funny is that i feel depressed when i dont talk to my boyfriend. But also sometimes talking to him(on the phone) makes me depressed. I guess its just a wierd relationship because sometimes when i talk to him on the phone he has this tone like he doesnt care but its mostly because he's distracted or tired.

But meh, rant rant rant.
Oh wait...must...say...somthing.....DEEP!!!
I like CHEESE!
Thats it, haha!

Oh and i've been "bonding" with Joey today....talking with him on gmail. And thank god he doesnt have a 'thing' for Ellen anymore....and he's changing his rules about hugging...because he said he's been missing out on a lot.. I'll say....he's right. So YES! I might be able to give him a hug! YAY!

*gaspage*

Wow, this is a first....im posting AGAIN....in the span of..*checks date*....three days? Hmm...i dunno...but meh.
Lol, and what i've realized is that me having this 'blogger' thing...im afraid of my friends looking at it. But truthfully..if they were my real friends they wouldnt get mad or anything at the things i post. ^^ Hah, im sounding deep.

MOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMANMOTHMAN

And from now on i plan to post the inner deep(lol, i almost spelled 'deep' wrong) thoughts of me. But not the wierd ones that make me super depressed but in the morning im all better....(those are the reeeeaally depressing one). They'll only be posted if they are longer term than a half hour.
So with that being said...what deep thing am i going to say. *thinks* Hey, i already posted an ish-deep thing. *looks to top of post*

*dances*

uh
Is that a car? O_o

SuMMER!

Aaand...since its summer...i plan to be on teh internet almost everyday. YAAY! And i'll try to update this at least every week. (keyword: 'try')
My goal this summer is to try to hang out with my buddies more. But i have a feeling that it will yet wont happen. Sure, yeah, i'll be gone for a week(6/25-7/3) to go to Yellowstone *sighs* but im sure that wont impact my 'buddy-time' as much.
Im sure Nikki and I will be hanging out much more because we are both doing colorguard(flag twirling and stuff) we'll be doing that much more. AAnd..also since Kendra is being rude without even being aware of it, that is also another reason. ^^
((AND I CANT WAIT FOR BAND CAMP! I GET TO HANG OUT WITH MY BUDDIES MORE!!))
And now as for Mackenzie...*sighs* I have a feeling that being of different sexes...haha....i said 'sex'. *cracks up* We prolly wont hang out as much because we need 'parental supervision'...but the 'bike rides' are o-so fun. *grins* MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
But since he is ish-bad at answering his phone(at least he's doing better)(lol....that sounded wierd) im feeling that that would be a handicap also. T_T


BUT ON A POSITIVE NOTE!
Im going to read a lot of books.
I already have a stack that needs to be read.
1. Slash
2. Firestar's Quest
3. ((the newest book of the Warriors series)) (i dont remember what its called ^^;)
4. Eclipse
5. The Host
And i think thats it. Maybe...
ANNND!
...i dont know...i just lost my train of thought..
..
oh yes!
My parents STILL have the stupid internet restrictions on the computer!!!(sure i could still change the time but thats a lot of work...and time) Even AFTER they said that they would take off the restrictions for the summer. ((yet another reason why i prolly wont be hanging out/talking with my buddies a lot. T_T))


FINALS ARE OVER((BIO IS DONE, YES!)) AND TIME TO SPEND TIME NOT GETTING FAT!!
MEANING.......RIDING MY BIKE A LOT! I HOPE TO DO IT WITH MA' BUDDIES!!
AND DRIVER'S ED! *SIGHS*
AND COLOURGUARD!
AND GETTING MY LICENSE!
AND GAS!!((good god))
AND...........YOUR MOM!!!

man...i wrote/typed a lot....